2016: The Year of Positivity

New Year's Eve 2015It’s all about the power of positivity in 2016.

As readers of this blog know, 2015 wasn’t the best year for me. It sucks because I was ready to tackle the year in a big way. Unfortunately, the year pretty much kicked my ass and I’ve been trying to battle back for the past few months.

Let me recap briefly…

  • In December 2014, I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. I was given anti-depressants to try. Unfortunately, the side effects included a lack of sex drive so I tried another anti-depressant instead. This one didn’t work at all and I ended up having a horrible Christmas full of anxiety and anger. Needless to say, I switched back as soon as I could in January.
  • I found myself having more and more issues at work with my performance. I couldn’t figure out why, but I was making little mistakes in just about everything I was doing. I was starting to panic about my job security, which only added to the mistakes.
  • With some pressuring from my wife, I went to a psychologist and after a few visits found that I had Adult ADHD (Predominantly Inattentive). This was a mind-blowing revelation because I have had this condition my entire life, yet was never diagnosed. It explained SO MANY THINGS, which was really difficult for me to come to terms with.
  • I was let go from my job at the end of July due to poor work performance…two days into taking my medication for ADHD. I don’t blame them…they had to look after their interests as a business. The timing just sucked because I was never truly able to show them my best work.

That was pretty much 2015 summarized. I’ve been out of work since the summer. I’ve been close to finding a job and have gotten a couple of “final interviews”, but it never worked out for one reason or another. However, both Sunshine and I are in a very fortunate position so that I don’t have to go after just any job in order to keep us afloat. I’m searching for THE JOB, or at least something very close to it. Those are few and far between in a city of only 100,000 with an 8% unemployment rate.

I felt low in December leading up to Christmas, but because our family did pretty good with what we had, I felt as though it was time for a different mindset. I just felt that I couldn’t let negativity into my world when there’s so much positivity. I felt as though I had too much to fight for in 2016…and I felt so strongly about this leading into New Year’s Eve that I did something that was absolutely unthinkable only a year ago.

I signed up for the local Polar Bear Dip.

Polar Bear Dip 2016Sunshine had done it twice and was hoping I would join her this time around. As we neared January 1st, I was up early one morning and felt that I needed to do something symbolic that would match my feelings on needing a fresh start and a new beginning. So while she slept, I went online and registered.

I was absolutely NOT wanting to do the jump on the morning of New Year’s Day. I didn’t care about new beginnings or fresh starts; only that the water was freezing and I was an idiot for doing this.

But as Sunshine and I made our way to the docks through the crowds of people, I felt as though this was something that I really needed to do. Plus, we were a bit late to the pier and our numbers had already been called…meaning that they rushed us up to the edge very quickly and there wasn’t any time to really reconsider bad choices.

I think this video pretty much sums up how the jump went…

So there you have it. I not only jumped, but LIKED it!! In fact, I already feel like I want to do it again next year! And you know what else is awesome? My son and step-daughters were there to enjoy the moment with me; to see their dad do something outside of his comfort zone. My parents would have NEVER done anything like that. Hell…they wouldn’t even have gone out to watch in person.

Not only that, but both of my teenaged daughters thought what I did was awesome and BOTH want to do it with me next year!!! How incredibly lucky and fortunate am I to be able to experience something like that?

This just confirms to me that I’m going to have a better 2016. My ADHD is under control. My depression is under control (for the most part). My children love me and I’ve got the greatest wife in the entire world.

A job will come. Experiences will come. Living life to the fullest will come.

Bring it on, 2016…I’m ready for you!

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3 thoughts on “2016: The Year of Positivity

  1. You’ve got this, baby.

    Sure, 2015 was tough in a lot if ways for a lot of reasons, but as we’ve discussed before, the groundwork was laid for some major progress to be made going forward.

    I’m so proud of you for not giving up on yourself; for realizing your own worth and for keeping your head held high. I know that 2016 is going to be your year!!

  2. Congratulations on your jump. I can’t even imagine jumping into water that cold. Congrats on the new attitude as well. I’d imagine that the positive attitude alone would be a major help on job interviews. Good luck and may 2016 be a much better year for you.

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