I can’t even begin to tell you just how I’ve been feeling over the past few days.
I started taking Vyvanse just over a week ago on a one pill (20mg) dosage. After a few days, I didn’t notice any change whatsoever. I then upped my dosage to two pills (40mg) last Wednesday, the day of my first Adult ADHD support group session.
Yes…I went to a support group. It was a small, six-person group with four newbies (myself included) and two regulars. The host of the session was very knowledgeable as he’s been diagnosed with ADHD since 1996. One of the regulars is also a coach and was diagnosed three years ago (at age 51!!). It was a pretty emotional night for me, to tell you the truth. I’ll be the first to admit that I’d been having issues reconciling the fact that I’ve got a mental disorder. This session was full of stories and really helped me realize that (a) this is a real thing and (b) I’m really not alone in this.
I totally realize that no, I’m not alone…but until you actually speak with more than one person who has stories where they experienced things in life that were exactly the same as you, it doesn’t really sink in that you’re not alone in all of this.
Let me tell you…Thursday brought along an entirely new perspective and clarity.
It was one helluva busy day at work. Hell…it’s been an insane two weeks at work. Two weeks ago I thought I was drowning. I felt as though I just couldn’t get anything done and what I did do was full of errors and mistakes. Basically, it was the same thing I’ve been feeling for the past year or so. But for whatever reason, I ended up FLYING through Thursday. I had a ton of work dumped on my desk and it was done by the end of the day. Work got done and was mistake free.
Friday ended up being the exact same thing. I started at 8am and ended up working all bloody day until after 4pm, then because of an issue outside of my control had to work at various times Saturday and Sunday. It was definitely a working weekend.
But here’s the thing: I felt GREAT.
After Friday’s work-day was done, I was beaming. I felt like I had owned the day and the fog had lifted from my brain. I remembered things, all of my work was done, and if there were any issues going on or mistake made, they were corrected before passed along to clients or supervisors.
The bottom line is that if this past week had happened a couple of months ago, I wouldn’t have been able to have handled it. At all.
Sunshine noticed the change and has continued to notice the change in the days since. I’m not saying that Vyvanse is some kind of “miracle drug” or anything, but at this point it’s been a big-time success for me and I couldn’t be happier.