I haven’t been out running since the end of November/beginning of December. Once I was diagnosed with having Major Depressive Disorder, I immediately shied away from doing anything that distracted me from getting better.
Of course…that was also just an excuse I told myself. I was lazy and depressed and full of self-loathing. As the months passed on, I used my recovery as an excuse not to go outside (the winter didn’t help, either).
So here we are nearing the end of March. We’ve been hit with three snowstorms in the past week and the sidewalks/roads are still in really bad shape. Of course, that hasn’t slowed down my awesome wife…who has gone for at least a 2km run every single day for almost a year now!
Anyway…the point is that I’m ready to get back to this. I’m in a much better place mentally and I’m ready to begin my journey to completing a half marathon. At first, that seemed like a daunting accomplishment to try and achieve, but I ran a 10K last year on my own: twice!! If I can run 10K, I can run 21.1K.
Monday, March 30th is Day One. I’m re-starting the Couch-to-5K app that I used last year. It’s been over three months so I know I need to start over again…but that’s okay, actually. I feel like I’ll be able to pick things back up quicker this time around.
I’m also at my heaviest weight, so starting slow is a realistic suggestion for me. But after looking at My Fitness Pal stats from 2012, I saw that my lowest was 212lbs. That’s almost 30lbs less than I weigh now…so where that was only three years ago, I feel it’s not an insurmountable task for me to overcome. I can TOTALLY do this.
And I’m not using anything else for motivation, either. I don’t have Random Esquire or Sunshine or a “Biggest Loser” contest at work or a race against a co-worker to motivate me this time around. I’ve got a positive mindset and a will to want back out there and prove to myself that I can do this.
I’ll be chronicling my journey over the coming months here and on my Instagram account. I figure that I’m the “poster boy” for the Couch-to-5K app because that’s where I’m living right now…on my couch. I’m really looking forward to changing things up and getting back out there.
Self-motivation…I never realized it could be so powerful.
Let’s do this!!