I feel as though the “spark” is back.
Based upon a conversation we had a few weeks ago (well…an argument that turned into a conversation), we both realized where the other person’s mind was at…and that really opened our eyes to why we weren’t “clicking” like we used to.
We both decided to make a concerted effort to improve the areas that were lacking, and so far it has made a pretty big difference in how we interact with each other.
I feel like I’ve fallen in love with Sunshine all over again. Obviously, I’m still battling issues but the medication I’ve been taking has made a huge difference in how I interact with people on a day-to-day basis.
My biggest problem is that I don’t want to actually do anything. Not laziness, per se…but just being content to come home every day and do nothing. That’s how I was raised and that’s how I thought I wanted my life to be. Come home from work…relax…go to sleep. That’s it.
It’s so easy to fall into a rut like that, too. You work hard all day; you come home tired and just want to put on PJ’s and crash on the couch watching TV until it’s time to go to sleep. Sunshine wants more from us and I agree. Two weeks ago we went out on a quick post-work date and have decided to make the effort to go out on a date…whether it’s a meal or a coffee or a movie or a walk…at least once every two weeks. We’ve actually said that to each other before, but never seemed to follow-through. Now, though, we’ve budgeted money for date nights…and our marriage deserves us taking that time for ourselves.
Obviously, we’re still in a rebuilding stage, but I firmly believe that we’re on a very positive track and getting back to who we were as a couple. That was always one of the things that made our love stronger: being that fun, unique couple that everybody wanted to either love or hate, depending on how sick they got of us.
I’m really looking forward to a great 2015. So far, so good…and it’s only getting better.