30 Days of Truth — Day 01 : Something You Hate About Yourself

After going through a depression late last year, I feel like I’ve come out of it a better person. I’ve been seeing the positive sides of life even though life itself isn’t perfect. Having said that, it’s difficult having to change my mindset to move from one of positivity to one of negativity, even if it’s for this blog meme.

One of the things I’ve always been able to do has been my ability to self-analyze, for better or for worse. So while I’m really learning to like myself, I’m still able to pick out things that I hate about myself. Today…I’ll pick one.

More than anything else, I hate my inability to not learn from my mistakes when it comes to money.

I’m not in a ton of debt. I don’t have thousands of dollars owing on multiple credit cards.  I am, however, living paycheck to paycheck and just barely scraping by.  It’s not ideal, but for the time being it’s the life I’m living and I’m making the best of it.

Sometimes, though, I can find myself sticking my head in the sand when it comes to money. I don’t live an extravagant lifestyle by any means, but where I have such a tight budget to work with, sometimes I’ll buy first and worry about the consequences later…and sometimes those consequences come back to bite me in the ass.

I hate that quality about myself because I always put myself behind the eight ball. Again, never a huge amount…but it’s just a constant battle. It sucks.

I know I’m not alone (even Sunshine has similar qualities), but it doesn’t make me dislike this thing about myself any less. And for whatever reason, I never seem to learn my lesson.

I’m far from perfect…I’m constantly trying to improve. This is the biggest obstacle that I want to correct, though. I just hate being this way.


4 thoughts on “30 Days of Truth — Day 01 : Something You Hate About Yourself

  1. Many of us are in the same boat…It makes me feel irresponsible at times.. Need to look into this more..:-)

  2. I used to fall into this very same habit – head in the sand about my finances. But now that I put myself on a budget (a really great spreadsheet my sister made for me!) that shows me how much I’ll have any given week, with my bills and other things inputted, I am in much better shape, and I don’t just ignore that I am low on funds or whatever, I take charge of it and fix it. So I can totally relate to this. Great post!

  3. You are not alone, I am trying to break the same cycle. It is hard, I learned it from watching my parents do the exact same thing as you described. I don’t want my boys to see me do the same. I know that the blame doesn’t fall squarely on my parents shoulders, I am an adult now. I just want them to see that you can control your fiances even when tough times. I hope this makes sense.

  4. Yep, I’m with Jobo. I budget every month (I’ve already budgeted into May) and that really helps me stay on track. My man has this same issue and beats himself up for it every month. The way I see it, you can’t expect a windfall to happen to fix everything. Slow and steady wins the race.

    Kinda like losing weight. Track it and you’ll be amazed what you learn.

    Very proud of the changes you’re making in your life!!!!

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