After going through a depression late last year, I feel like I’ve come out of it a better person. I’ve been seeing the positive sides of life even though life itself isn’t perfect. Having said that, it’s difficult having to change my mindset to move from one of positivity to one of negativity, even if it’s for this blog meme.
One of the things I’ve always been able to do has been my ability to self-analyze, for better or for worse. So while I’m really learning to like myself, I’m still able to pick out things that I hate about myself. Today…I’ll pick one.
More than anything else, I hate my inability to not learn from my mistakes when it comes to money.
I’m not in a ton of debt. I don’t have thousands of dollars owing on multiple credit cards. I am, however, living paycheck to paycheck and just barely scraping by. It’s not ideal, but for the time being it’s the life I’m living and I’m making the best of it.
Sometimes, though, I can find myself sticking my head in the sand when it comes to money. I don’t live an extravagant lifestyle by any means, but where I have such a tight budget to work with, sometimes I’ll buy first and worry about the consequences later…and sometimes those consequences come back to bite me in the ass.
I know I’m not alone (even Sunshine has similar qualities), but it doesn’t make me dislike this thing about myself any less. And for whatever reason, I never seem to learn my lesson.
I’m far from perfect…I’m constantly trying to improve. This is the biggest obstacle that I want to correct, though. I just hate being this way.