I was inspired by the results of the blood work that I got last month because I was healthier than I had feared. Knowing that it wasn’t too late has been a big boost to my motivation, especially with 40 just around the corner later this year.
I went to my dietician last week and got my Body Mass Index looked at. Let’s just say that the results were less than pleasing (I’m in the higher-end range for a future heart condition at my current weight and age) and only went to motivate me more.
So now I’m seeing a dietician once a week and am attending a 12-week healthy eating course. I’m down 5 pounds from the beginning of the year and I’ve been making a lot of healthier choices lately. I’m even counting my calories on a daily basis using CalorieCount.com (if you’re already signed up, you can find me here and be a moral supporter).
I’m feeling better about myself than I have in years. I’m still definitely overweight…and the vast majority of my extra weight is in my stomach, which in itself isn’t good…so feeling better about myself is a huge step in the right direction.
I think I’m finally beginning to come to terms with my depression. I don’t know if it was a “mom thing” or a “holiday thing”, but the last week or two has seen me feeling good…even with some restless sleepless nights and vivid dreams about my mom. After discussions with my dietician, it turns out that I might have sleep apnea. My appointment should take place sometime in the next few weeks (I’m waiting to hear back from them), so I’ll hopefully find out one way or the other soon.
I’ve tried to be healthy before. I’ve tried to diet before. But for some reason, I could never seem to maintain my motivation. While not going all “hardcore” this time around with dieting, I’m doing more to help myself get healthier than I ever have in my entire life…and I’m feeling a lot better about myself because of it.
I still have a ways to go, though. I still sit at home in the evenings in a dark room in front of the laptop when I should be doing other things, but I’m a work in progress…and I feel that for the first time in over a year, my progress is good.