It’s a little bit funny…
…how there are “real” people from my life who read this blog. I mean, I always intended for this to remain kind of an anonymous get-away from the realities in my life, but I realize that isn’t always going to be the case. There aren’t many people IRL who know of this blog, but there are some. In fact, one of them bumped into me at the grocery store on Friday night and asked how I was doing because he was concerned. It was a bit weird because I had to accept the fact that the blog is “out there” for people to read…so it’s something I need to expect to hear from time to time.
…how much the written word can be taken to heart. I sometimes take for granted the power of my typed-out voice and how, even if I may say something in passing, people take it to mean something much more. While I was in a very “down” mental state last week when I wrote this post, I didn’t realize just how much those words would concern people about me and my welfare. Please know that I’m fine…I was just REALLY depressed to have let Sunshine down in something that was so important to her.
…how little I knew of myself until the past five years or so. I mean, I think I was like most guys…just sputtering through life living it the only way I knew how. It took the failure of my marriage and the unhappiness in my workplace to really help me take a look at myself and find out not only what was wrong, but how to fix it. Last week opened up some old wounds that I thought had been closed, and those are issues that I’ll have to work through in the coming weeks (nothing serious…just the same self-loathing and self-sabotage issues I’ve always been dealing with).
…how much a hornet sting hurts, especially if it’s on the back of the neck. While at the zoo with my son on Saturday, hornets were out in full effect. Apparently one of them didn’t like how I tried to move AWAY from it and decided to sting me. Little bugger. Those things are really aggressive right now (I saw somebody else get stung, too). What the heck?
…how I’ve become the only one in my family, apparently, with the ability to converse without getting into a huge fight. I had to endure a bit of drama yesterday between my little brother and my dad (the reason to be discussed later this week). I ended up talking to each guy individually and smoothed over what was a VERY intense situation…to the point that there were tears and hugs between the two of them only a short time later. Man…I’m a frickin’ Dr. Drew!!
…this feeling inside. I’m not one of those who can easily hide. I don’t have much money but boy if I did I’d buy a big house where we both could live.