All I had to do was be there for her. All I needed to do was make sure I was there when she needed me. Instead, in my attempt to come off as the “glorious perfect always-there boyfriend”, I ended up missing the most important part of the entire weekend.
In my attempt to support the woman I love, I completely failed her.
I could come up with excuses, but I won’t. I could go into the details of exactly what prevented me from being at the finish line when she crossed it, but there’s no point now.
I’m going to lay low for a few days and try to wrap my head around why I’m not being the man that she needs right now. I need to figure out what I have to do to be a better person…why I find myself not only letting her down but letting those close to me down, too…not to mention myself.
What was supposed to be an amazing weekend with a fantastic story about Sunshine’s triumph over her own fears has turned into an extremely unfortunate series of let-downs that took away from her happiness.
I need to take a step back and analyze the situation.