Motherless Day

Sunday is going to really suck.

Obviously, this will be my first Mother’s Day without mom…and as we creep closer and closer to the day, it’s becoming increasingly difficult to go through my normal daily activities without having her face flash through my mind.

I’m trying to move on with my life, but I know there are still some difficult times to come. 

I need to go through the hundreds upon hundreds of photos that I have been given of my mom and our family, and scan them so they’re on a disc.  I was on a mission the night she passed away…scanning photos for the funeral home’s video until 4 o’clock in the morning.  The problem, though, is that I haven’t been able to look at her picture since.  I’m hoping I can get the courage to do it sooner rather than later.

And then we need to bury her ashes.  The ground was frozen and not in good condition to dig up so the funeral home will contact us (probably some time this month, I would expect) so we can have a burial service. That finality…watching the urn lowered into the ground…will probably be the toughest part of this whole ordeal.

There are still times when I forget she’s gone. Somebody came up to me last night, for example, and offered condolences.  I had to remind myself that mom wasn’t home…she wasn’t on the other end of the phone…she wasn’t watching American Idol with dad.

So as Sunday approaches, please make that extra effort to tell your mom just how much she means to you. Life is too short to take her for granted.

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6 thoughts on “Motherless Day

  1. Your post is a reminder to me to reach out to my mom this weekend and tell her how much I care. We have a really good, close relationship, but weirdly, we don’t talk all too much. Exchange emails, texts and a phone call every week or so, but strangely not always that often. She isn’t a fan of mother’s day (thinks it’s too ‘hallmark’) but I’ve always liked and wanted to share it with her, so I have. Thanks for the reminder to make the effort, appreciate the time I have with her, because some, like you, aren’t able to. Virtual hugs to you this weekend.

  2. Oh sweetie… thinking of you. I miss my dad more now on Father’s Day than I did on Father’s Days when he was alive. Very proud of you for keeping her memory alive.

    ((hugs))

    1. Well…I can’t imagine NOT trying to keep her memory alive. I mean, she meant the world to me.

      I’m just so grateful for the good relationship I’ve now got with my father.

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