As many of you know, it’s been a rough few weeks for me and my family. The problem I’m finding is that I haven’t really felt up to blogging nearly as much as I normally do.
Now, that’s not to say that I’m quitting or anything…I’ve still got a passion for writing and I this blog has been therapeutic for me on more than one occasion. I’m just trying to get back to a place where writing can flow from me again.
I’m sleeping a bit better, though I find myself still waking up around 5am thinking of mom every other day. I can talk about mom’s passing without breaking down in tears, though I can’t find the time to send out all of the ‘thank you’ cards to everybody that donated to charity on mom’s behalf. I can look at pictures of mom and smile, yet I can’t seem to sit down and truly think about her because it’s still too painful when I realize that she’s actually gone.
So I’m slowly returning to normal. My dad? He’s still having an extremely difficult time so I’m going to do whatever I can to help him through the grieving process. He has told me stories of despair and he has told me stories of hope, even so much as to mention that he’d like to help me raise funds for my Relay for Life efforts in mom’s name.
I appreciate those of you who continue to read the blog as I throw out sporadic posts. I’m hoping to get back onto a regular schedule sooner rather than later.