As I previously mentioned, I’m not really the best at making financial decisions. I live (barely) from paycheck to paycheck and I never have anything in my bank account once bills are paid. Y’know…WHEN they’re paid.
So the inevitable question comes up: Can I even afford to be in a long-distance relationship? Quite frankly, the answer is “no”.
But here’s the thing…I haven’t been able to afford being in a long-distance relationship since I started dating Sunshine almost two years ago. ** insert laughter here **
So what has changed?
On my end…nothing. And maybe that’s why I’ve fallen behind on bills on more than one occasion within the last year. Because of “the state of the economy”, there were no raises this past January for the first time since I started at the company 3 1/2 years ago…and that really hurt. I’m still paying my share every month for Ankle Biter’s babysitting expenses that wont’ be done until he starts kindergarten next September, at which point I’ll then be paying for his after-school program). I’m still paying on a car and a home that I can’t really afford, and that won’t change until I sell my home. To assume that it’s smart to be in a relationship that involves travel every few weeks wouldn’t be accurate. It’s simply not a smart decision.
So why am I still doing this?
I’m involved in the greatest relationship I’ve ever had. So regardless of whether I’m broke or not doesn’t matter…I simply don’t want to lose what I’ve got. Sure, things would be infinitely better if we lived in the same city or if one of us won the lottery. Unfortunately, neither one of those things will be happening any time soon.
Does that leave us at a crossroads? Not for me…at least not on my end. I mean, what’s was more important to me: my relationship or finances? It may not be smart, but it’s a no-brainer.
I absolutely adore Sunshine. I’ve searched my entire life to find somebody that I want to spend the rest of my life with. If I need to go through another year…even another few years…going through the same financial situation in order to be with the woman I love, then that’s what I’m going to do.
There’s no end in sight.
But I honestly wouldn’t want it any other way.