Awwwwww f*ck.

I just got off the phone with my dad.

He just got some preliminary results from my mom’s doctor.

Her three tumors have doubled to six within the past month.

She’s had a sore back for the past week or so, and a tumor is the reason. There is a tumor on her spine that could actually paralyze her if it’s not taken care of immediately.

The doctors are going to rush her into radiation next week starting on Monday…only adding to the seriousness of it all.

Best case scenario that we received before looking at final test results…she’s got three years left.

I can’t even fathom this.

My dad was driving when he called me and had my little brother in the truck with him, so he held it together as best he could when talking to me.

I could tell, though.

He’s only as strong as those around him. This is his life partner…slowing vanishing in front of his very eyes.

He’s not going to tell her. Right now the only people who know are the doctors, him, my brother, and myself.

I’m asking those of you who know me and my family and read this blog (there’s only a couple of you, but still) to please not tell anybody else in the family about the severity of the situation until my father feels comfortable telling it himself.  I know he has told some of them but not all.

I’m doing okay. I’ve got a great support system in Sunshine and a great outlet for my thoughts in blogging.

We’ll just have to take things one day at a time and make sure that each day is lived to the fullest.

Today is the radiologist. Monday the radiation starts.  Next Wednesday is the neurosurgeon, who WANTS to see mom as soon as possible so that doesn’t bode well for her brain tumor.

Oh life, what an interesting roller coaster you put us on.


20 thoughts on “Awwwwww f*ck.

  1. I am thinking of you, Sunshine and your family. It is a tough situation. I went through it with my sister. Wendi is so right. Spend as much time as you can with your family. I have regrets. It’s a horrible feeling.

  2. T,
    Sending love, support, hugs, and prayers. Marc’s mom, though, was given 3 months, 3 years ago. So, you never do know…This is very hard, I know. Please do take care.

  3. I’m so sorry CGB. I know how hard this is.. I’ve lost several relative to cancer, and two have been very close to me. Your mom and your family are in my prayers.

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