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The First Date

As the anniversary for Sunshine & I has come and gone, I’ve been doing a lot of reflection. I’ve been looking back on this incredible journey that we have shared for over three years now and have thought about just how we have gotten to this point.

We’re absolutely head-over-heels in love…we’re soul mates…there’s no denying that. But it’s been such an incredible few years in terms of personal and emotional growth that it’s hard to believe three years have gone by.

So while I should have probably re-posted this back on the actual date of our anniversary, I thought today would be as good a day as any to re-post the details of our first date…especially as it followed another amazing weekend together with Sunshine. I wrote this on a different blog back in 2008 (before “CBG” was created and when I was calling Sunshine by the name “K”) and it, for better or for worse (and including vlogs by yours truly), is pretty much an EXTREMELY DETAILED rundown of our first-ever date.

It was a day that I’ll never forget and I still think about it often. So here it is, The First Date…..

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DECEMBER 6th, 2008

We had decided that to make things as “normal” as possible and not overly awkward, I would just drive up for the day and leave after dinner in the evening. We had been talking for a couple of weeks online and were really nervous about whether or not our online chemistry would carry-over into “real life”. There had definitely been a connection online and I really was digging her, but she had some reservations. The “Saturday Day Date” was supposed to be the big test.

I didn’t hit the road as early as I would have liked, but still not too shabby…


I would be "A".  She would be "B".

I would be "A". She would be "B".

I was just pulling up to the half-way point of my journey…a toll booth on the Cobequid Pass when my cellphone rang. This first thing out of her mouth?

“You know you really shouldn’t be answering the phone while you’re driving.”

Heh.

I asked her to hold just a second as I paid my toll and pulled into a parking lot. A few minutes later, I was back off and running with a huge silly grin on my face…really anticipating the meeting that was less than two hours away.

I then decided to make another video after one more “pit stop” on the way there…

As I pulled into Dartmouth, I felt the need to make a quick pit stop before going across the MacDonald Bridge into downtown Halifax. So I pulled into the Ultramar on the corner of Victoria and Woodland Avenue. I came out, pulled back onto Woodland, and turned left on Victoria when the lights turned green.

My heart sunk. My stomach flipped. I immediately panicked.

My right front was pulling to the right and I couldn’t steer. OMG!!! I immediately pulled over, threw the 4-way hazard lights on, and got out to see the damage.

FLAT AS A PANCAKE.

Are you kidding me??? Did I not have this exact same thing happen to me just a few short months ago?? I popped the trunk and began getting the spare prepared. A lady in the house I was parked in front of yelled at me to move because she was about to leave. Ugh. So I pulled across the street into a parking lot and surveyed the damage. It was a nail. A long nail.

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Oh dear lord…not today. Not today of all days.

So I raised the car and started working over the lugnuts. I couldn’t get them off. In fact, I was straining so much the car came off the jack (don’t know my own strength, I suppose…lol). I was getting frustrated because at this time it was already 9:15am and I was supposed to be meeting Sunshine.

AHHH!!

Luckily, a pleasant passer-by named Tony and his dog Roy stopped by and offered assistance. He asked if I had stood on the bar in an attempt to move the lugnuts.

“Why no…I hadn’t thought of that.”

Needless to say, he helped me get the lugnuts off and jack up the car. Once I made the switch and thanked him for being a good person, I stood back to survey the damage.

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At this point it was after 9:30am, and with Sunshine not having a cell phone and us not having made any plans in case something had happened…I was starting to panic.

So I threw everything into the trunk and rushed off to the Halifax Farmer’s Market. Once I parked and made my way to the building, I was nervous and anxious and going crazy because it was now almost 10am and she was going to be waiting outside for me at 9:00am.

After running around for 10 minutes and immediately sensing how huge this building was, I stopped and thought for a minute. She said that she sometimes liked to eat Chinese food for breakfast at the market (which is something I’ll make a regular occurence, too, when I go back with her), so I found the Chinese food kiosk next to one of the entrances and stood there; hoping that she’d pop up.

At 10 o’clock, my cell phone rang. I answered with, “I’M HERE!!” Once she found me I gave her a HUGE hug and immediately showed her my grease-covered hands. I tried explaining the story and then she laughed…

Wait….what?

She thought it was amusing. I mean seriously…out of all the days to have this happen, TODAY was the day. Heh.

The market was awesome. The tour of the market was awesome. The smells and the sights and the sounds of the market were awesome. The crowd? Not so awesome. Long story VERY short, the market was awesome and I’m definitely looking forward to going back with her.

At around 12pm, we decided to stop by her house really quick so she could drop off her purchases (veggies…meat…) and we could be off again. When she went inside…


And yes…I ended the video with, “Cool beans”. I NEVER say that phrase. Ugh.

Anyway, so we drove to Canadian Tire and picked up some tire plug stuff. LOTS of stuff I could go into at this point, but I’m trying to condense as much as possible. Let’s just say that in spite of the situation, we were absolutely making the most of our time together…laughing, talking, and just enjoying each other’s company.

There’s something to be said about making out in a store parking lot. Just sayin’.

Anyway…we pulled into a gas station and when trying to fix the hole with the plug, realized that the hole was on the SIDE of the tire, not the bottom.

OMG…that can’t be fixed.

OMG…I can’t drive all the way back to Moncton on a donut for three hours on the highway.

OMG…do I have any money in the bank for a tire?

OMG…where in the blue hell am I going to find a tire place in Halifax?

Wait…that last part should be easy. It’s Halifax, Nova Scotia for cryin’ out loud.

I went inside the gas station we were parked at, wrote down a bunch of places out of the Yellow Pages, and immediately thought that the Tire Shack would be the best choice for a cheap, used tire (hey…it’s a shack that houses tires…how much simpler can it get??). It was on Prospect Road.

“Hmmm…uhhh, Sunshine? Do you know where that is?”

“I think so, yeah.”

And off we went.

She was 100% correct about the direction. We both just didn’t realize that we’d have to drive half-way to Peggy’s Cove in order to actually find the Tire Shack location. And no…I’m not kidding. Point “A” is where we started at the Canadian Tire…Point “B” is where the Tire Shack was.

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It took us (seemingly) forever to find this place. We pulled in and I walk into the office. I explained my situation to the lady and that I was just looking for ANYTHING to put on my car for the trip back to Moncton.

“Well, we closed last February but ask the owner and see what he can do for you.”

Wait……………………………………..what?

Yeah…they were actually closed. Had been since February. OMFG.

I nervously smiled at Sunshine sitting in the car as I went from the office to the garage area, where the owner appeared to be helping out a friend’s vehicle or something. I explained things and he felt sorry for me (at least I think he did). He said that he didn’t know for sure, but would go out back and check.

He came back with a brand-new all-season tire. Uh-oh…NOT what I had in mind. He said that it retailed for $99 but considering the situation and that he wasn’t actually open or even IN BUSINESS, he’d give me a deal. So he said $88 for the tire, installation, and balancing. Not a bad deal, right?

Oh…did I forget to mention that he was closed? Because if I had mentioned that, it would have become apparent that he had no debit machine and could only take cash.

Ummm…

I had $50 in my pocket. $56.45, to be exact. I sheepishly went to the car and explained the situation to Sunshine. She was doing her best to contain her laughter at the whole story. Then I asked her how much cash she had on her.

Yes…on a first date I was bumming money from my date. “Cads-R-Us” alert!!

Pooled together, we had $84 in cash. BAH! So we were told that there was a bank machine back a little bit at the Irving we passed on the way there. We’ll be right back.

The f*cking gas station felt like it was an hour away. So I go in and grab $100 out of the machine…still chuckling at the fact I actually ASKED SUNSHINE FOR CASH. Wow.

We got back to the closed Tire Shack at 1:30pm. Upon further inspection, the “tire guy” realized that I had studded winter tires and would have to rotate the back one with the new front one to make sure I wasn’t all messed up. Because he didn’t notice it before, he wouldn’t charge me any extra.

We finally got finished at 2pm…just as we had hoped. I wish I could really explain how amazing Sunshine was during this entire time…but I can’t. Let’s just say that this particular part of the day was one that we both will remember forever and smile (it included cheesy 80s music, a dancing lady, pretending to be married, and LOTS of stolen kisses).

I gave the guy the entire $100 for being so awesome and we were back on the road and off to the Museum of Natural History!

Sunshine had passes to the museum so it was the least expensive part of our entire day. I shouldn’t really laugh at that part, but looking back it’s pretty funny.

So after the museum, I forced her to pick a restaurant for us (and I can’t remember the name of the restaurant, which sucks because it was amazing). We got there at 3:30pm and the front door was locked.

WTF is it now?!?!?!?

It opened at 4pm. We looked at our watches…3:30pm. Dang it. Let’s walk around for a bit. So we went into Sweet Janes on Doyle Street. Wow. It was part candy store, part San Fransisco Gifts store, part sex shop (lol). Half awesome, half creepy.

There were toys for tots (kazoos!), toys for adults (candy-thongs!!), and toys for the odd (a Jesus action figure and bobble-head doll….seriously). Oh…and there was a TON of candy, too. Honestly…this was almost as much fun as anything else we did that day.

So after learning of her sock-fetish (which will come in handy to know come Christmastime), we made our way back to the restaurant for supper. Two hours later, we realized that the date had to come to an end (and no, Sunshine…I didn’t RUSH you through your coffee…lol).

After saying our goodbyes, I drove through until Stewiake (that “elephant” I mention is actually Mastadon Ridge) and making a pit stop…


So to summarize? I wish I could. In spite of EVERYTHING that could have possibly gone wrong, I had one of the best days I’ve ever had.

Honestly…this totally ended up being the greatest first date I could have ever asked for. Sunshine is an absolutely amazing woman and I can’t tell you the relief I feel knowing the connection we have isn’t limited to “online only”. Regardless of where this ends up, it’s gonna be a fun ride.

The risk WAS worth the reward.

***swoon***

K

Sunshine


Happy Anniversary, Sunshine

It’s been three years since the love of my life…my soul mate…came into my life. I wish I had the words to adequately explain just how much this woman means to me.  All I know is that she saved me. She STILL saves me on a daily basis. She is the woman I plan on spending the rest of my life with. Period. The end.

Sunshine, I love you more than I can ever express into words…so instead I figured that I’d show you in pictures.

So without further adu, here are some of my favorite pictures from three years of absolute happiness, joy, and undying love.

For better or worse, this is our first picture together!

I'm trying to drive!!

Who da man? I'M DA MAN!!

2nd best red light ever (gotta love inside jokes)

Trying to look all serious 'n' stuff

Best Canada Day Ever

KISS concert!!

Shubie Park, 2009

08-01-09: all smiles and smugness

Our first sunrise

We're on a boat!!

She's really more impressed than she lets on

The animal magnetism is scary wild between us. Check it!!

Citadel Hill, Halifax, Nova Scotia

I'm dating a movie star

What...don't we look like we're a happy couple in love?

Awww...now THIS is more like it!

Lost in the woods while on a walk. Seriously.

Don't act like you're not impressed

The giant lobster in Shediac, New Brunswick

I fell in love with her all over again on this day

Hopewell Rocks, New Brunswick

Murphys On The Water -- Halifax Waterfront

Enjoying some ice cream with three of my favorite girls

Oh yeah...she's all mine, fellas!!

And just think...this was probably our fifth time trying to take this picture.

Nope...nothing in your teeth. How about mine?

Oh yeah...we clean up good.

Tanned and pretty (I couldn't think of anything better to say)

Being crazy and "enjoying" Hurricane Earl!

Sometimes I just look into her gorgeous blue eyes and I melt.

It's all about being photogenic, kids.

Cabot Trail, Nova Scotia

Oh Meat Cove, Nova Scotia...how we miss you.

Hey lookie behind us...it's a road!

The almost complete family portrait (part one)

The almost complete family portrait (part two)

I have NO idea where that smell came from.

First class in an airplane, baby!!

We're in Miami. I said MIAMI, PEOPLE!!

Nothing says "love" like being locked up in the Bahamas.

"Welcome to Paradise" in the US Virgin Islands

Our reaction after realizing that we were playing miniature golf on top of a cruise ship in the Caribbean. I mean...c'mon, people. How awesome is that???

Enjoying the sunrise in San Juan, Puerto Rico

Lookit this woman...she's SMOKIN' HOT. And she's all mine!!

On a beach in Grand Turk.

What can I say? She's into the kinky stuff sometimes.

Check out her new rims!! I love 'em!!

Enjoying "The Lookoff" while in the Annapolis Valley

I don't normally drink, but when I do it's only with her.

Natural beauty & the beast. But if you call her a beast, I'll be VERY upset. (#JOKES!!)

In Kejimkujik park just moments before coming up with the greatest idea ever.

La-Haaaaave!!

She took me ziplining on my 39th birthday. Heck yeah, she's awesome!

Enjoying apple picking in the Annapolis Valley with our brood running around behind us.

Confederation Bridge en route to Prince Edward Island

Even with a ridiculous-looking moustache, she still loves me.

At the end of the day, Sunshine is simply the most incredible woman I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. To know that this beautiful person (both inside and out) actually loves me is a blessing.

She’s my rock. She’s my better half. She completes me. She is my everything.

Happy anniversary, baby. It’s been three years of the most amazing journey I’ve ever been on. I cannot wait to see where our loves takes us next.

I love you.

Love of a lifetime for a lifetime


Working Through It

Last night I hit a pretty low point. I felt exacerbated…lost…broken. I haven’t felt that way in a very long time.

The cause is mainly financial in nature. I feel as though my finances will never change while in my current situation. I feel as though I’m going to have to make the decision to leave the city I live in (and thus, leave my son) and move to be with Sunshine in order for both of our lives to truly get on track.

Money’s tight…and it only seems tougher when the holidays are around.

But I know I’m not alone. I know that there are others out there battling each and every day to make ends meet. I know that some people won’t be able to afford anything for Christmas for their children.

So while I’m in a tough spot financially, I’ve got a roof over my head and food on the table for myself and my son. I’ve got the love of a beautiful woman and her two awesome girls. I may not have much for Christmas in terms of gifts, but I’ll have love overflowing…and I need to realize that’s the greatest gift I can give or receive.

The thing that really got me last night, though, was this upcoming weekend. It’s my anniversary with Sunshine. Three years of long-distance love.

THREE YEARS.

My problem was that she really wanted to do something to celebrate…going out to dinner and dressing up and celebrating a fantastic achievement (i.e. making a long-distance relationship work).  However, since I’m not in a financial position to do that, the money issue would fall on her.  I’m trying to not be overly old-school here, but I feel tremendous guilt when she is the one picking up the tab. I feel even more guilt knowing that she’s not in the greatest financial shape, either.

So that guilt all came to a head last night.

Sunshine felt this. She hates seeing me like this. She hates knowing that I’m battling demons and issues and can’t seem to fight them because they always come back to fight me again. She also hates knowing that I bring most of this all on myself…my “need to self-destruct” seems to always be my number one battle and she can’t understand (nor can I) why I do it.

She actually offered to give up our weekend together. She said that the money I saved on gas for the trip could be better spent on Christmas gifts for my two kids. Out of anger or out of compassion, she was willing to make that sacrifice for me.

I slept on her offer.

I woke up this morning feeling like I had a bit more clarity. I felt like I was prepared to tackle whatever the world wanted to throw at me.  I also couldn’t imagine not spending our anniversary weekend together.

So I’ve made the choice to go to Halifax this weekend to be with the love of my life. I’ve made the choice to enjoy every single moment that we’re together, regardless of what it is that we do or who is picking up the check. I’ve made the choice that I will not let stress run my life…that I will make smart decisions over the coming weeks that will allow me the opportunity to enjoy the holidays, not fall into depression because of them.

I’ve got a lot of issues that I’m trying to work on. It’s been a rough year…between having to move to a house I really don’t enjoy to losing my mother because of cancer to putting on a brave face as my father became engaged to another woman only months afterwards. I realize that I haven’t been myself and I have made choices that gave me “instant gratification” or “comfort” instead of smart choices that would help me over the long haul.

I’m working through it, though. I really am. I’m trying, anyway…and I guess that’s all I can continue doing. I just can’t let it defeat me.


The Christmas Plan

I stopped to talk with my dad last week as I was on the way through to Sunshine’s. While he now has a fiance that lives with him, I feel that sometimes he still doesn’t get to talk as much as he’d like to…so I was there for 30 minutes having a discussion with him about various issues.

We talked about his work, about my brother’s school problems, and about my new car. He then went to start asking about Christmas and whether or not I was going to be there to spend Christmas Eve with him.

It wasn’t always a tradition or anything, but he loves celebrating Christmas and having family around. He loves Sunshine and her girls (and obviously Ankle Biter) and loves cooking breakfast for them when they come over to visit.

This year, he said that Christmas would be pretty difficult for him. He said that his fiance isn’t a huge Christmas fan and he was hoping to have all of us stay with him over the holidays. I told him that I would discuss the situation with Sunshine and let him know what our plans were.

As it turns out, I don’t have Ankle Biter this year for Christmas (I had him last year). In addition, it’s the girls’ weekend with their father…so he worked out a deal with Sunshine where they stay overnight on Christmas Eve with their mom and go to their dad’s sometime mid-morning on Christmas Day.

I called dad and told him this on Monday and it seemed to break his heart.

Technically speaking, it’s possible to have all of us there (minus Ankle Biter) on Christmas Eve and Christmas morning…but then we’d have to pack-up around 8:30am to drive two hours to get to the girls’ father’s place.  After thinking about it, it just didn’t seem fair to the girls…that’s a lot of driving (considering we’d get there the day before after a two hour drive) for a limited stay.

Sunshine told me that if I wanted to stay overnight on Christmas Eve at my dad’s instead of with her and the girls, she’d understand.  She said I could come up to be with her once the girls had gone back to their father’s.

That kinda surprised me. What a wonderful sacrifice to make…allowing me the opportunity to be with my dad and my family during a difficult time for him.  But then it took all of two seconds for me to decline her offer.  Why?

Sunshine and the girls ARE my family now.

My dad will have my little brother. My dad will have his fiance. More than likely, Sunshine and I will drive down to visit after dropping off the girls.

Does he want me there? Sure. Does he need me there? Perhaps…but I don’t know if he NEEDS me there.  At least not as much as my own family does.

There is nothing I want more than to wake up on Christmas morning next to Sunshine. And the only way Christmas would be any better would be for my two kids to join us and celebrate the morning with her two girls. It has happened before, it’ll happen again…just not this year.

So while I can understand that my father’s upset over this, I need to do what’s best for me and my family. And at this point, that’s spending Christmas Eve and Christmas morning at Sunshine’s with her and the girls.

I think this is the right decision. At least I hope it is.


Is jealousy ever okay in a relationship?

This is a re-post from November 2009.

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I was listening to the radio this morning and the “Morning Crew” were discussing when a lady knows that she is dating a loser (great topic).

One of the items that came up was jealousy, and the example used by the female host was “When he won’t let you dance at a club with another guy.” The male host immediately suggested that he wouldn’t like his girlfriend dancing with another man and thus the discussion began because the female host really didn’t see it as a big deal.

What if that guy wanted to buy you a drink? Is there a line to cross there?

What if your boyfriend was there at the club but didn’t want to dance? What if you were out without him?

What if you were married? Would that change anything?

I think there are way too many scenarios and possibilities to think about in this type of situation. Because in the end, it really all depends on the individuals involved in the relationship. I mean, one person’s jealousy could be another person’s “I love you”.

Personally, I think there is a line to draw between me physically being there and me not being there.

Being totally honest…I’m not much of a dancer. My inability on the dance floor was one of the reasons I was always the DJ sitting up in the corner and not the one trying to do the macarena. So if, for some reason, I find myself at a club with Sunshine and she really wants to dance, I’ll probably not mind too much if she goes up with a friend to shake her bootie (they still call it that, right?). I wouldn’t say a slow dance is okay, though…but a fast dance is fine as long as it’s not a tribute to Dirty Dancing.

But what if I’m not actually at the club with her? I’d like to say up front that I wouldn’t have a problem with Sunshine going out with her girlfriends for a night of partying and clubbing. That doesn’t bother me because I trust her. But if she was doing some one-on-one dancing with another man that night? Well…I think I’d have the right to be jealous.

Or am I still off-base here?

Does it make me a “loser” to show a bit of jealousy from time to time? I know that getting angry and upset isn’t healthy at all…there’s certainly no reason to be overly jealous and I’ve seen it with other couples way too often over the years. But I’m allowed to feel a bit uncomfortable with certain situations, aren’t I? I mean, I would like to think that if didn’t show any feelings at all, I’d end up looking like I was too comfortable or taking the relationship for granted.

When it jealousy okay in a relationship? Is it ever okay? Are there lines to cross?


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