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CBG Memories: The Cracked Wrist

As I mentioned yesterday, I’ve decided that once a week I’ll tell a story from my life that (hopefully) my kids can enjoy some day when they’re older. It could be a funny story, a love story, a coming-of-age story, a morality tale, or even just a bunch of memories about a certain place or person. In the end, they’re just random stories that will ultimately give my kids an idea of who their father was.

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Growing up as a kid, my family moved around quite a bit. Dad worked at a bank and had worked his way up to being manager. Back in the late 70′s & early 80′s, branch managers moved around often…”graduating” to larger branches.

When my dad left banking as a career, he entered into the restaurant business and moved the family to his home town in the early 80′s.

As you can imagine, it was a bit difficult to keep and maintain friends…especially when I’d only be in a school for two years at a time before having to start over again in another school. I think this is why I’m a bit of an extrovert now…I used my personality to (hopefully) make friends and make kids laugh. Of course, I also got into trouble with teachers a lot, too…but that was to be expected, I think.

This move to my dad’s home town was the final move I had as a kid (of course, I say that but I still ended up going to two different elementary schools while in sixth grade). I began to make friends at the second school and after a couple of weeks was told about a weekly hot-spot for kids.

What was this hot spot? The roller-skating rink.

The Alfran was a building where, every Friday evening, all of the local underage kids would go to hang out and roller-skate to their favourite tunes. I asked my parents to go one night and they agreed. I was hoping to meet up with some of my new friends and forge some stronger bonds (or something like that…I was in sixth grade…what the heck did I know about “bonding relationships”??).

I need to stress that I’d never roller-skated before. Ever.

So my folks dropped me off and I strapped on some roller-skates and tried to find my friends. I don’t remember seeing many people that I recognized, but I remember vividly the songs that were playing as the kids skated round and round in a circle.

And yes…kids who were “dating” even held hands to this song:

At this point the night is a little blurry. All I know is that I was skating by myself and my legs started flying out from under me. Without hesitation, I braced my fall with my left arm. I immediately felt a sharp pain in my wrist and I knew my night was done.

The pain wasn’t overwhelming, but it was enough that I just wanted to go home. I called my mom to come pick me up. I felt bad because I was leaving early but I didn’t see a lot of my new friends so I didn’t mind that much, either.

As soon as I saw my mom enter the building, I broke down in tears. I can’t exactly explain why, but the pain suddenly felt worse and I felt as though everything I had been holding in to make myself look “tough” in front of these other kids just didn’t matter when my mom walked through the door and I could just let it all out.

I don’t know if that feeling has ever gone away.

I didn’t break my wrist…it was only a cracked bone. To this day, it’s the only bone I ever broke. But the bond I made with my mom on that night has never been broken.


Finding Inspiration

One of the things that Jim “Depot Dad” Everson did near the end of his blog time was upload videos to YouTube of him just telling stories from his life. I have thought about a great many things since his untimely passing last week, one of them being how I could honor his memory in a unique way.

I think I’ve found that way.

I’m not yet thinking about uploading videos (although I’m considering some “video diaries” to make for my kids to watch as they get older), but I think I’d like to recount some stories of mine from over the years. In this case, I want to try to put some of my memories into a format that will always be there even after I’ve passed on…so that others may share and some may even remember.

It’s probably one of the things I should be doing more of anyway, but sometimes when you’ve been writing a blog for awhile you tend to develop focus in different directions. I’ve always got a lot of things on my mind so my focus is rarely the same…as you can probably tell if you’re a regular reader.

So I’ve decided that, going forward, once a week I’ll tell a story from my life. It could be a funny story, a love story, a coming-of-age story, a morality tale, or even just a bunch of memories about a certain place or person.

It’s not much, but it will be my way of remembering and honoring Jim…and it’ll be in a way that benefits myself and (hopefully) my kids as they grow into adulthood.

I’d like to have a “title” for the series, though…but I’m not sure what to call it. For example, my first post will be about the only time I’d ever broken a bone in my body. I’d like to have the series to look something like “CBG Memories”, so the first post would be called, “CBG Memories: The Broken Wrist”. Is that too corny? Can you think of anything else? Either way…the series will start tomorrow.

Thanks, Jim. I appreciate the inspiration.


The Thoughts That Haunt

The losing of Jim “Depot Dad” Everson is still weighing on me. It’s weighing on me not just because he was a “blogger friend”, but because of a couple of other reasons. First is my mom. She’s going through radiation and chemotherapy right now to battle the tumors that are tearing her body apart…and that’s a really tough thing to deal with. Cancer sucks…without question. And as one grows older, I doubt there is anybody out there that hasn’t had their family or friends affected by cancer at some point. I’ve lost friends…I’ve lost family members…and now this thing with my mom and Jim is just giving me a sinking feeling in my stomach. But the really big weight I’m feeling is guilt.

Why guilt?

Well…awhile back Jim’s friend Rachel “Single Mom Seeking” Sarah asked some of her and Jim’s mutual friends via Facebook to send something to Jim to pick up his spirits a little bit. I made a home-made cd of Canadian music and bought a KISS card that played “Rock’n'roll all nite” when you opened it up. I got a message from Jim shortly after he received it:

Todd,

I want to especially thank you for your card and letter. I know this is a sucky time for you too. Cancer is the king of suck. There is no other way to put it.

Please feel free to call me any time.

415-xxx-xxxx

I copied your cd to my iTunes but haven’t listened to it yet. So are you telling me all of those musicians are from Canada?

Best wishes to you and your mother,

Jim

No…I didn’t call him. And that, more than anything else, is REALLY bothering me. It’s been tough to go through this cancer thing with my mom for the third time. Sunshine’s been great and I feel like she’s my confidant, but outside of her I just don’t feel overly comfortable talking about it.

So that’s the excuse I gave myself for not calling Jim and just talking….shooting the breeze, as it were.  Why didn’t I call him?  Why didn’t I take him up on a very generous and friendly offer when I had the opportunity?  Now…I’ll never get that chance.

I’m sorry, Jim.


R.I.P. Jim “Depot Dad” Everson

Rachel “Single Mom Seeking” Sarah wrote this on Jim’s Facebook wall today.

As some of you know, we have lost Jim. He’d asked us to let you know when it was time. The time has come. Thank you to everyone for the love you showed Jim.

In late July, Jim had asked Phil and me to pass on the following, written by Jim:

“I know everyone will remember me in their own way, but for my own selfish interests, I hope that people will remember me as a person who, though often bewildered by the world, was also someone who delighted in learning about it, and mostly, was thrilled when given the opportunity to share in the excitement of learning. I would like to be remembered as a devoted father and a loving friend.”

Sunshine and I are extremely saddened to know that we’ve lost someone we considered a “blogger friend”…someone who communicated with both of us and made us feel like we could hang with him at any point.

In fact, I was more than just a little happy to have been placed on his “Blogosphere Bingo Card” of fellow bloggers he hoped to meet in person (once he met you, he colored-in the card)…


RIP, Jim.  You’ll never be forgotten.


Thoughts of a peaceful time

This world will be a lot worse-off  if it doesn’t have Jim “Depot Dad” Everson in it.

He is a good man…a good father…and a fellow blogger.  He is also a man battling the devil known as cancer.

And he’s losing this battle.

On his Facebook page yesterday, Jim said the following…

I’m sorry, everyone. I did my best.

I don’t even know how to respond to a statement like that, but I can only imagine the feeling he is going through…especially knowing what my mom has gone through over the past couple of years.

As of yesterday, Jim was back in the hospital.  As of last night, he was in pain and not wanting to see any visitors, though he did have someone close to him there.

Nothing would make me happier than to be able to fly to California today just so I could meet this kind, gentle man in person.

I’m not the praying type.  I’m not a religious man.  But I’m hoping and praying that Jim’s time isn’t up yet.  I’m hopeful that there is a higher power somewhere that will allow him to have just a bit more time on this earth…if for no other reason than to allow his two children to spend some more time with the father they love so dearly.

At the end of the day, all I really hope is that Jim is peaceful.  My thoughts today are of him and his family.


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