I’ve said those words before after spending a weekend here: “Back to reality.”
But the fact of the matter is that it doesn’t get any more REAL than what we shared this weekend. So instead, I’m going to consider this “back to work”.
Why work? For one because it’s never “work” when we’re together. Nothing ever feels as natural and free and comfortable as we do when we’re in the same room. And also because we live 3 hours away from each other. This is the primary obstacle that I have with our relationship. This is the fear that I need to battle and work on the most.
Being away from her.
So I’m not going “back to reality”. This weekend wasn’t a blur. This weekend wasn’t a dream. Any time in the future, if we’re wondering why we’re going through the pain of being alone…if staring at a webcam and just being in physical pain because you want so badly to be with the other person…if I ever get afraid of failing again; all I have to do is remember this weekend.
This is what we’re fighting for…
It’s been an emotionally draining weekend:
- Reliving the past in an attempt to ensure we don’t repeat the same mistakes again or revert to the same thoughts and fears.
- Thinking about the right now and how we truly believe that we’re in a unique position…one that many people never get to fully realize and appreciate and feel.
- Thinking about that unknown future…and doing our best to convince ourselves to never forget the reasons why we’re together in the first place.
There are a LOT of pictures that I haven’t had the chance to upload yet (we’ve both been using pictures from her camera). On top of that, we even had a professional photographer ask to take pictures of us yesterday as we visited Peggy’s Cove (she said that she’d email us the photos…I can’t wait).
So the next two days may just end up being a big two-part post on my part. Primarily because I’m a blogger…and I know that very much like me, there are many of you who want to know more details about our weekend together. So just be patient…they will be coming soon.
I leave in one hour.
Back to work.