Monthly Archives: November 2011
My dad’s a big fan of the holidays (even though it’ll be tough this year without mom for the first time). One of the things he enjoys doing is adding music to his lights outside. The thing that makes me laugh (and hence, the reason for this post) is that he usually has music BLARING outside all day and in the evening until about 11pm.
As I mention in the video, he knows it’s loud enough when the neighbours complain.
So forgive the mo (that thing’s getting shaved REAL soon), but enjoy the quick video I made last night of my dad’s REALLY loud outdoor holiday music.
I’ve been in need of a smile lately. Badly.
So I spent some time last night looking around for reasons to smile and laugh and try to get my swagger back. Trust me…it didn’t take long to find ten things and I ended up smiling a lot.
Hopefully you will, too…
1. Apparently November 17th was “Facebook Unfriend Day”. I had no idea, but thanks to Jimmy Kimmel and Biz Markie…now I know (and so do you!):
2.Tebowing. Y’know, I’m not the biggest fan of Tim Tebow in the world, but I think the dude is a winner and I can appreciate why the NFL goes all crazy when talking about it…whether it be negative or positive. And while I initially thought that “Tebowing” was a ridiculous concept along the lines of “planking“, the sheer global span of this silly NFL-based photo-meme has got me pretty impressed.
You don’t have to “get it”…but you can certainly sit back and smile at the nonsense of it all. Just check out some of the places world-wide that “Tebowing” has been documented:
3. I’ve never been a very active kind of guy (shocker, I know), so even the thought of “parkour” is way beyond what I’d ever be capable of. But just try to sit back and not be absolutely blown away by what this young man is able to do with his body. It’s simply incredible:
4. Ummm…this made me laugh out loud at work today. Crude but funny.
5. You all know that I’m a slight fan of the camera. I can only wish that I had the patience to take a picture of myself every single day not just for one year, but for over FOUR years. This is simply awesome…
6. Trust me…the $39.50 price tag seems a bit steep and it’s not within my budget, but knowing there is a CARBONITE CARRYING CASE makes this Han Solo flash drive pretty effin’ awesome.
7. I may have mentioned once or twice before that I not only love the US version of the X-Factor, but I first started watching the UK version of the X-Factor (the original show that inspired American Idol) last year and have continued to watch it this season, as well. During last season, one of my favorite performers was a spark-plug named Cher Lloyd. She was young and original…singing and rapping and was completely different than anything else I’d ever seen or heard.
She didn’t win the competition but was the first to come out with a hit single (the winner’s single didn’t do quite as well). Because I’m not up to date on the UK pop charts as much as I should be (insert sarcastic smiley here), I didn’t know that the single was released back in July and only heard it last week for the first time. I gotta be honest…I may be 39 but I’m absolutely LOVING this song. To me, it’s like a younger, newer version of Gwen Stefani’s “Hollaback Girl” without being that annoying.
8. Ummm…I don’t care who this is or why it’s there. At the end of the day, there is NO REASON why a Buzz Lightyear toy should be up somebody’s ass. At all.
9. Listen…I’m not the biggest Nickelback fan in the world, but I am, indeed, a fan. I know that everybody and their dog (seemingly) hates them because it’s the “cool” thing to do, but I really enjoy their music and to me that’s the bottom line.
They are scheduled to perform tomorrow night during the big Green Bay / Detroit Thanksgiving NFL game at halftime, and there has been a TON of backlash from NFL fans. So Funny or Die decided to try to take advantage of the situation.
And really…why not? You gotta check it this: NICKELBACK RESPONDS!
10. And finally there’s me. Seriously…most of the day I forget I even have this bloody moustache on my face. Then I go to use the washroom and get startled when I look in the mirror. It’s fun, it’s silly, and it’s ridiculous.
So what about you? Anything out there helping YOU smile today?
Last night I hit a pretty low point. I felt exacerbated…lost…broken. I haven’t felt that way in a very long time.
The cause is mainly financial in nature. I feel as though my finances will never change while in my current situation. I feel as though I’m going to have to make the decision to leave the city I live in (and thus, leave my son) and move to be with Sunshine in order for both of our lives to truly get on track.
Money’s tight…and it only seems tougher when the holidays are around.
But I know I’m not alone. I know that there are others out there battling each and every day to make ends meet. I know that some people won’t be able to afford anything for Christmas for their children.
So while I’m in a tough spot financially, I’ve got a roof over my head and food on the table for myself and my son. I’ve got the love of a beautiful woman and her two awesome girls. I may not have much for Christmas in terms of gifts, but I’ll have love overflowing…and I need to realize that’s the greatest gift I can give or receive.
The thing that really got me last night, though, was this upcoming weekend. It’s my anniversary with Sunshine. Three years of long-distance love.
My problem was that she really wanted to do something to celebrate…going out to dinner and dressing up and celebrating a fantastic achievement (i.e. making a long-distance relationship work). However, since I’m not in a financial position to do that, the money issue would fall on her. I’m trying to not be overly old-school here, but I feel tremendous guilt when she is the one picking up the tab. I feel even more guilt knowing that she’s not in the greatest financial shape, either.
So that guilt all came to a head last night.
Sunshine felt this. She hates seeing me like this. She hates knowing that I’m battling demons and issues and can’t seem to fight them because they always come back to fight me again. She also hates knowing that I bring most of this all on myself…my “need to self-destruct” seems to always be my number one battle and she can’t understand (nor can I) why I do it.
She actually offered to give up our weekend together. She said that the money I saved on gas for the trip could be better spent on Christmas gifts for my two kids. Out of anger or out of compassion, she was willing to make that sacrifice for me.
I slept on her offer.
I woke up this morning feeling like I had a bit more clarity. I felt like I was prepared to tackle whatever the world wanted to throw at me. I also couldn’t imagine not spending our anniversary weekend together.
So I’ve made the choice to go to Halifax this weekend to be with the love of my life. I’ve made the choice to enjoy every single moment that we’re together, regardless of what it is that we do or who is picking up the check. I’ve made the choice that I will not let stress run my life…that I will make smart decisions over the coming weeks that will allow me the opportunity to enjoy the holidays, not fall into depression because of them.
I’ve got a lot of issues that I’m trying to work on. It’s been a rough year…between having to move to a house I really don’t enjoy to losing my mother because of cancer to putting on a brave face as my father became engaged to another woman only months afterwards. I realize that I haven’t been myself and I have made choices that gave me “instant gratification” or “comfort” instead of smart choices that would help me over the long haul.
I’m working through it, though. I really am. I’m trying, anyway…and I guess that’s all I can continue doing. I just can’t let it defeat me.