Then I realized I was just where I needed to be (and really, should have been all along).
Timing, as they say, is everything.
It was quickly realized yesterday that what we went through…the painful break-up and ensuing three months of “trying to forget”…was exactly what we needed. She went through a period where she gained inner strength and true independence. I went through a period where I constantly questioned myself.
In the end, the timing wasn’t right the first time.
But now? Now I realize that I’m more afraid of not having her in my life than I am of failing. She’s now ready to allow herself to be happy because she knows that she’s worth it.
It’s only Saturday morning, yet it feels like it has already been the greatest weekend ever.
And for those of you who want more details on “Day One”…you’re outta luck. Heh.
What I will say, though, is that our little “Twitterverse” and “Blogosphere” has seemingly exploded with well-wishes and curious questions. And for that we are both truly grateful and a bit surprised.
I suppose that is one of the many awesome things about being a blogger…the anonymous connections that you make can quickly turn real (if you allow them to). There are people out there that I consider friends now and they are genuinely interested in my well being. To those who don’t know what Twitter is or who cannot understand putting your thoughts down in a blog every day…it might seem impossible to understand. For us, though…it’s a very warm feeling.
So as the sun rises over Halifax, Nova Scotia and it’s 6:30 am on a Saturday morning…I sit here wide awake as she sleeps. I’m excited about the day ahead and excited about our future together…and I haven’t thought that far ahead since the day I proposed to The Ex.
Thank god she never gave up on us.
Alright…off to shower and then off to the market (mmmm…Chinese food for breakfast). We’ve got a full day, I think. The question is, though…just how much time will be spent outside today?
Heh…don’t be thinking that…we are TOTALLY behaving ourselves: