I woke up this morning and didn’t know where I was.
Then I realized I was just where I needed to be (and really, should have been all along).
Timing, as they say, is everything.
It was quickly realized yesterday that what we went through…the painful break-up and ensuing three months of “trying to forget”…was exactly what we needed. She went through a period where she gained inner strength and true independence. I went through a period where I constantly questioned myself.
In the end, the timing wasn’t right the first time.
But now? Now I realize that I’m more afraid of not having her in my life than I am of failing. She’s now ready to allow herself to be happy because she knows that she’s worth it.
It’s only Saturday morning, yet it feels like it has already been the greatest weekend ever.
Watching the road while trying to drive is REALLY over-rated.
And for those of you who want more details on “Day One”…you’re outta luck. Heh.
What I will say, though, is that our little “Twitterverse” and “Blogosphere” has seemingly exploded with well-wishes and curious questions. And for that we are both truly grateful and a bit surprised.
I suppose that is one of the many awesome things about being a blogger…the anonymous connections that you make can quickly turn real (if you allow them to). There are people out there that I consider friends now and they are genuinely interested in my well being. To those who don’t know what Twitter is or who cannot understand putting your thoughts down in a blog every day…it might seem impossible to understand. For us, though…it’s a very warm feeling.
So as the sun rises over Halifax, Nova Scotia and it’s 6:30 am on a Saturday morning…I sit here wide awake as she sleeps. I’m excited about the day ahead and excited about our future together…and I haven’t thought that far ahead since the day I proposed to The Ex.
Thank god she never gave up on us.
Alright…off to shower and then off to the market (mmmm…Chinese food for breakfast). We’ve got a full day, I think. The question is, though…just how much time will be spent outside today?
Heh…don’t be thinking that…we are TOTALLY behaving ourselves:
TOTALLY behaving: 05-22-09
May 23rd, 2009 at 9:12 am
Hahah too cute. And Chinese for breakfast? Interesting. Have fun!
May 23rd, 2009 at 9:49 am
Oh, you two! I’m a new reader, but watching this love story unfold on Twitter yesterday was so, so charming. Savor every moment.
May 23rd, 2009 at 11:01 am
Yay! I’m glad you’re not feeling the fear right now. Because BELIEVE ME, its SOOOOOO easy to feel.
I’m still catching my breath here. You two are very inspiring to me.
Thank you, CBG, for the reminder to just let it be.
Love you guys!
May 23rd, 2009 at 11:23 am
That just makes me feel all kinds of happy.
May 23rd, 2009 at 4:38 pm
I feel all warm and squishy inside now .
Seriously, CBG, I cannot tell you how happy I am to read this and to hear that you are THAT thrilled and into thinking about a future with K.
I wish you both all the best that you could both possibly know. Blessings, blessings upon you.
(And I’m guessing that she’s EXTREMELY easy on the eyes! Heh.)
May 23rd, 2009 at 4:40 pm
OH! And I give that “TOTALLY behaving” thing about, oh, 5 more hours (and that’s me being generous).
Mwah ha ha ha ha!
May 24th, 2009 at 8:26 am
Janet — The local market has food vendors. Whenever we go on a Saturday morning, we go straight to the Chinese food vendor. It’s weird…it’s quirky…it’s totally us.
jen k — Thank you for the comment! Yeah…I re-read Twitter after my arrival and it looked like a lot of fun for others to read. Hopefully even half of our enthusiasm ends up getting translated to the written page.
T — You’re right…and I think today’s post really explains how I’m working through my fears as best I can.
And when I’m back home, you’ll have to tell me how YOUR love life is going…I’m definitely keen to know if those texts have turned into anything else. Heh.
Sheila — Me, too!!
Amira — Well…that whole “totally behaving” comment? That was more tongue in cheek than anything. But don’t just take my word for it…check out her tweet (and the pic attached to it):
http://twitter.com/Momma_Sunshine/status/1889365940
May 26th, 2009 at 1:07 pm
I don’t know that I’ve ever seen a better reason to start using Twitter!
I’m incredibly, blissfully happy for you CBG. Happy for you BOTH.